Feeling quite out of sorts this morning. It's 4 am and I should be asleep. I feel all wired and tense. Is it possible I am losing my mind !! Could be but I doubt it. It is probably the damn 7” of snow and sleet we just had. No one out and about. I am quite bored. Politics or should I say, what is going on in our country, has me pretty upset. Usually, I have company so I can talk about it or something else that is positive. The roads were all ice last night and again tonight, no company. If I had to pick someone to be here right now I do not know who I would want to spend time with. If you could pick someone of any age, gender, living or dead who would it be ? I am asking myself this question right now. My mind is racing. I have been reading all night so I have about 10 different people in mind. I read and wrote about Ted Kacynzki for about two hours. He is 74 years old now and still in maximum security prison in Colorado. Wouldn't that be an interesting person to talk to !! I would have a million questions and he would beg to be back in isolation. Ha ha !!
It's been a very long gray and chilly day. I listened to some oldies and that was good for about an hour. I think that guy on here that called me a “shut in” really hit home. I never think of my not going out, as being a shut in. I guess I rationalize it by choosing to believe, I do not want to go out. I really don't, but is that because I am in such a rut. Could be. My doctor's appointments drive me crazy. Even family event's do. One of my sons asked me why I don't get rid of my car. I thought about it and know I can't. Then I would feel like a shut in with no way out. I don't think any one got to me like that person did. Name calling from Neo and some others is so different than a human being ( I do not know) doing it. Of course, I give him too much credit, calling that guy normal. Such hatred being spewed on both sides was upsetting to me. Actually Munky got on my nerves too. I try very hard to be respectful yet I have been snarky lately. I know I have been and it is probably the time of year, politics or the weather. Those are not excuses, they are realities. Even taking them in to consideration, I haven't been in a good mood lately. I called that guy out and he was still a jerk. In my “ideal” world every one gets along and no one sets out to intentionally hurt someone's feelings. Don't really have an answer but I was ready to leave Thoughts completely and just go to my other blog site. No one has to tell me I live in La La Land. I am well aware of my perception, adverse to reality. Usually the gap is not as wide. Coming on here and venting is what I do. There are a lot of givers in the world and a lot of takers. When I say something that will hurt someone's feelings I feel bad. Lately, really don't give a damn. Hopefully, it passes. As soon as the weather is a bit nicer, I will be sure not to be a “shut in”. SLAPPPP.