Feeling Blue

No idea what has taken over me the past couple of days.  It's seems like a case of "nothing interests me".  A tad depressed but nothing serious.  It fascinates me when I get bored easily, am not tired, am a bit blue, for no apparent reason.  According to everything I have read, there has to be a reason.  NO, there doesn't.  Not on a conscious level anyway. 

My son left for Florida even though, I thought he had changed plans.  One of his workers, son, died from a drug overdose  When he first found out about it, he thought he should be here.  I know he even offered to lend him the money for the funeral.  Then he called me last night as said he was leaving at 6:00am on a flight to Florida.  The trip was planned but one day he tells me he shouldn't go and then he goes.  Love to know who he talked to between times.  This made me a little sad.  I thought he should stay and show his support.  I will never understand how he thinks. 

My next door neighbor came over to watch a movie.  I wanted to be cheered up a little so I decided to watch "Serial Mom" with Kathleen Turner.  My little Korean neighbor was horrified.  I had to shut it off.  It was too graphic ( violence) and the language offended her.  OH MY !  We have watched action movies where every other word is F*** this or that.  She just laughs.  She immigrated here in the 1960s so it's not like she has been living in the dark ages.  It is possible it is a cultural thing.  No doubt when she saw Kathleen Turner dressed like Mrs Cleaver, she didn't expect what she got.  She did carry on for a while about how offensive it was.  I gave up trying to explain the word "spoof". 

Been trying to find some interesting drama or suspense movies to watch with no luck.  Being a movie buff at one time does not serve me well when I am bored or blue or whatever the hell you call it..

OK, I have vented enough that I should feel some relief, RIGHT !  Oh goodness, I hope so.  There is nothing worse than boredom to me.  It is my enemy. 

Everyone have a great day tomorrow.  It is supposed to be a beautiful day here.  Possibly some sunshine will help.  The gray days are getting to me.

PEACE BE WITH YOU

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Comments (9)

  1. Neighsayer

    yeah, I’m on the edge too . . .

    March 31, 2016
    1. belladora

      Not enough drugs. We should get high. Bothers me all I do is legal drugs. Would like to be a rebel once in a while. ..

      March 31, 2016
      1. Neighsayer

        Well, I’m a little too old to be pushing anyone. God forbid I talk you into your first joint and you go all “Hair” and accidentally join the army or something. Ha. I think it’s being high keeping my head above water right now – but of course I think that or I wouldn’t be a pothead. I’m worrying that I’ve spent my life asking to be left alone and that it may have worked . . . feeling awfully alone in my thoughts and feelings, and the decades are kinda stretching out like that. I got a book going right now that I feel is a big deal, important, and I can’t get it read, not by a publisher or even all those women in my house, my wife and daughters. With them, I’m just in trouble for facing the screen to write it. I’m a stoner, I know. But that’s been one year now after eight years sober before it (stoner before that) during which time, my divergence did not pause either . . . it’s a bit tough right now. Been some of that pneumonia lately, and starting month five of a med that messes with my appetite and my sleep. That’s a recipe for mental issues.

        March 31, 2016
        1. belladora

          Sorry you aren’t feeling well. Had issue with pneumonia a few times in the past 3 years. Sucks the life right out of you. Yes, I more or less require my solitude. Every once in a while, it gets weird. I always manage. Hope the meds work. What brought you back after 8 years. Hope that book gives you a lot of comfort. It is quite an accomplishment. I know the sacrifice is pretty hard on your family. Never too late to adjust your behavior with the family. A heart to heart goes a long way with women. Just tell them what you have said here. It is sincere and they should hear it. Just my humble opinion. Hope you get some sleep.

          March 31, 2016
          1. Neighsayer

            death in my wife’s family, her dad. I jumped to the weed first chance because I knew the stress she’d have and therefore I’d have was going to be bad. After that, it’s all illness and side effects that make me think I need weed to eat and sleep. It’s psoriasis meds, with some gastric and appetite effects, ‘Apremilast’ or ‘Otezla.’

            It’s been Jeff VS the girls all these years, but it’s starting to be more the old VS the young, I think my wife’s on the outs with the girls and she’s coming over to my side a bit these days . . .

            March 31, 2016
  2. dincali

    i hear ya. i hate being bored, yet this is my life…go figure.
    hahahahaha

    March 31, 2016
  3. noahbody

    Boredom is the worst. Some sunshine SHOULD help. A little depressed? Is that like a little dead? Depression blows.

    March 31, 2016
  4. cjb321

    Something must be in the air. Feeling somewhat the same. Sometimes a walk helps so may do so in a while.

    March 31, 2016
  5. EyeVey

    I pay $6 a month for a CBS all access account. I love it. Last week I was getting into watching the original Star Trek episodes. What a blast! I use my son’s Hulu for other stuff.

    April 01, 2016